When I first got clean I found myself staring at the trees in awe. I couldn’t believe I had lived here most of my life an never truly took in the beauty of the mountains. I used to dream about leaving and never coming back. Well, I love it and appreciate it here now. I think it isn’t about where you are but how you are mentally.
I worked hard to get to where I’m at. I was able to move out of my grandmothers into an apartment. I didn’t have a washer or dryer so me and Anaiah would go to the laundry Matt quite often together. I remember laying in bed crying when I finally bought a washer. Because I was just so grateful. I know we will look back on these memories one day and smile because we made the best out of every situation.
I love being a mom. I love seeing the growth in Anaiah. I love being able to give her the structure she deserves. She is in first grade and is in the Academically intellectually gifted program. I’m glad that I can see the other side of life’s gifts. And be appreciative. Even when I’m down and start to go into a depression. All I have to do is look around and remember all the blessings we’ve received.
I can’t say enough that God has provided ways for me when I haven’t felt deserving. Not that there isn’t challenges I face often and it’s taken hard work. But I do know that God has a plan for me or I wouldn’t be here today.
Meditation for the Day
I will have faith, no matter what may befall me. I will be patient, even in the midst of troubles. I will not fear the strain of life, because I believe that God knows just what I can bear. I will look to the future with confidence. I know that God will not ask me to bear anything that could overcome or destroy me.
Prayer for the Day
I pray that I may put this day in the hands of God. I pray for faith, so that nothing will upset me or weaken my determination to stay sober.