So I’ve heard quite a few times how people get stuck in the the “recovery” community or “stuck” at a place in there life where they don’t move past labeling themselves as an addict. People say things like stop “harping on it.”
I’ve watched closely around and quickly realized that the most successful & happy recovering addicts are the ones who put it all out there, speaking and showing up for those around them. In whatever ways that means to them.
They don’t claim to have it all figured out. But they don’t ever forget that addiction runs deep in them. They give back in recovery just as much as they took during active addiction.
I think people like us that have been through such hell, find it hard to just walk away and forget that it was and is a part of us. We can’t run from it. And just because we got clean doesn’t mean we can go on so called “normally”.
I think family members and friends who haven’t experienced it themselves find it hard to grasp why we can’t just “move on” after we quit using drugs.
By no fault of their own. I don’t blame anyone that can’t understand. I’m actually thankful they don’t have to understand. Because that means they’ve never been in the grips of addiction. They’ve never came face to face with the devil.
It’s a lot of work daily to deal with what goes on in our heads. It gets a lot easier with time. But it’s still always there. If we could manage an do life the “normal” way I think we all damn sure would.
When I soul search and ask myself, would I go back in time an rewrite my story? I don’t think that I would. I know for a fact I’ve become a better person all around since finding recovery. In all aspects of my life. I know it’s kinda cliche to say that my struggles have made me who I am. But they truly have.
Some of the best and most genuine souls I’ve met are recovering addicts.