So. Photo Memories in your phone can be gut wrenching… well that’s if you have a past like I do. On days where it seems like I’ve tried to forget where I’ve been… Google Photos makes damn sure I don’t.
I can be having the best day ever and the memories will pop up on my phone to remind me of the hell I was in for so long. The pain I’ve caused my family, my child. All right there in color for me to see. With some audio too.
For a long time I just wanted to erase everything and start over. Erase every single memory in my phone. I probably should. But I just never could bring myself to.
A lot of my daughters younger years I was high. And as much as I would like to erase the pictures. It’s the only memories and pictures I do have of her being that young.
I guess what I’m getting at is sometimes I just wish I could take all of it away. Act like it never existed. But that’s not the reality.
But with the more an more time that goes by those memories get easier to bear. The better life gets and the more good times that come my way, those unsettling pictures fade away and become not as painful.
When they come up now I just breathe and talk to God. And thank him for saving my life. I am a miracle to be alive. With my whole entire soul, I am thankful. I believe.
If you believe that some people are irredeemable, you can take a look in my google photo memories.
Meditation for the Day
Like a tree, I must be pruned of a lot of dead branches before I will be ready to bear good fruit. Think of changed people as trees that have been stripped of their old branches, pruned, cut, and bare. But through the dark, seemingly dead branches flows silently, secretly, the new sap, until with the sun of spring comes new life. There are new leaves, buds, blossoms, and fruit, many times better because of the pruning. I am in the hands of a Master Gardener, who makes no mistakes in His pruning.
Prayer for the Day
I pray that I may cut away the dead branches of my life. I pray that I may not mind the pruning, since it helps me to bear good fruit later.