“LIFE ISN’T ABOUT FINDING YOURSELF, LIFE IS ABOUT CREATING YOURSELF”
I’m reading a book called BORN FOR THIS by Chris Guillebeau. A book about finding the work you were meant to do. He is also is the author of The Art of Non Conformity, a book that provides tools and resources to help you live a more fulfilling life.
For a long time, I have always felt as if I was born to do something different. I thought that my passion was Care Giving. Which don’t get me wrong I do care deeply about my patients. Sometimes I feel as if too deeply. It’s hard for me to separate work and home life. I threw myself into work for 2 years. Sometimes working 12 days straight 12 hours each. I am thankful for that time. It helped me mentally after coming out of active addiction.
But now, life has slowed down. I’m learning to find a healthier work/home life balance, along with making time for my self care. I’ve really been processing what my purpose is in life… I’m just not sure if I see myself doing this for 20+ more years. I think that that’s okay. If anything I’m proud of myself for recognizing it and deciding it’s not too late. Also, for being willing to put the damn work in to make that change.
I think my goals are overall are pretty simple. Create a life that my daughter and family can be proud of me for. And spend as much quality time with those I love while doing it.
The difference in myself today. Is that I put actions behind my dreams and aspirations. Just like with Recovery. Action. Doing something. I also know that behind all great things took hard work, dedication, and consistency.
I’m not scared anymore to reinvent myself. In any areas of my life. Because I know that if i can make it out of the pits of hell with addiction that I can make it through anything.
I hope that all of us can find ways in life to create more fulfilling lives and put our energy into our passions. Life is too short not to.
“ONE MORNING SHE WOKE UP DIFFERENT… done with trying to figure out who was with her, against her, or walking down the middle because they didn’t have the guts to pick a side. She was done with anything that didn’t bring her peace. She realized that opinions were a dime a dozen, validation was for parking, and loyalty wasn’t a word but a lifestyle. It was this day that her life changed. And NOT because of a man or a job but because she realized that life is way too short to leave the key to your happiness in someone else’s pocket.”