When I wasn’t even 90 days clean from a 10 year drug use. I became a Private Caregiver. Sounds crazy right? I promise my heart was in it and him and his wife became my life. I found purpose for my life again. Truly, I don’t think I’d be sitting here talking to you today…

So Thursday my daughter came home from school. She tells me she wants to eat the rest of her peanut butter and jelly that I had put in her lunch box. She proceeds to take the sandwich out and eat it. I’m in the kitchen when she tells me her mouth is burning. I just…

So yesterday my best friend and I went to the gym and to grab some lunch. On our way home she mentioned that 1 in 3 people have an underlying mental health issue. When I got home I started doing some research. 11.7% of Americans 12 and over use illegal drugs. 53 million or 19.4%…

I’ve had to let go of a whole lot of shit. When I started this journey I held so many resentments towards people. I resented my parents for not being stable and protecting me more. I resented my child’s father for not being an active father in our daughters life. I resented his family for…

I used to always believe that I wasn’t good enough. I had very low self esteem. It showed in most areas of my life. Relationships, work, parenting. I am my own worse critic. It’s almost as if I had to put on a facade to cover up my insecurities. As if people couldn’t clearly see…

When I first got clean I found myself staring at the trees in awe. I couldn’t believe I had lived here most of my life an never truly took in the beauty of the mountains. I used to dream about leaving and never coming back. Well, I love it and appreciate it here now. I…

So. I would be lying if I said this wasn’t something that I struggle with. If I had more money…” “if only I had more family support.” “If this person hadn’t of done this to me I would be more successful.” There’s a lot of things that for a long time I put the blame…

I think the first step in my Recovery was believing in myself. Once I started believing in myself I knew that I could make it. It took a lot of help and support from my sponsor and going to NA meetings to realize that… turns out.. I’m not the only F’d up person out there..…